Patience

On Friday I managed to delete my afternoons work by accidentally pressing don't save when closing photoshop. I was so annoyed with myself and it messed my weekends schedule up meaning today instead of getting on with something new I had to go back and redo work I had lost. While doing the work I realise how impatient and frustrated with myself I have become, even though everything was quicker the second time round.

Today I finally managed to take a step back and understand the advice I've been given off many people. I need to be more patient with myself. Everything I do recently I expect to be done with in a certain time frame yet also to a high standard. I've been putting so much pressure on myself that I'm even frustrated when I make mistakes such as deleting my work. Everyday I watch instant TV on Netflix, I become agitated over loading screens and sometimes I'm so busy I eat ready meals rather than cooking my own food. I expect everything to be instant and I think my BA drummed the urgent mentality into me. Now on my MA I need to take a step back and have fun creating work that is of a good standard rather than churning out art and never having the time to have fun and reflect objectively.

This weekend I've spent a lot of time developing my character Cadi and really trying to nail the design and style. This has been a huge challenge for me as I have never designed for stop motion before. I've learnt a lot from stepping back and being objective about my work particularly about the way the face is constructed and how to stylize that construction. Having more patience and allowing myself to make mistakes is definitely the way forward.